by the tym i reach home, i always have no mOod 2 post an entry. wanna noe y? nah, dun wanna tell u. sumtyms, having the internet can totally suck. uh huh.

im 2 lazy 2 eleborate so i shall write everytiing in point form.
here goes.


- recess was farnie. seeing him tryin 2 'escape' har.har.
- iis he avoiding mii or am i bein paranoiid?
- had 2 waiit for 5 mins b4 the guy in griller took our orders
- by den, mii n iza were practically rolling on the floOr laffing
- met jac n nadzii after tad
- slacked ard in mac
- did maths n later, jian siong came
- walked wiith JS home.
- denver called, he wanted 2 drag mii 2 shop. no way.
- din go was feeling shitty. so, yea.
- sum ppl are juz 2 tired n have absolutely no mood 2 even lift a handd 2 wave at mii or even the least smile at mii. wtf!
- i am pissed!
- i am so farkin pissed!!!
- fark!! i cannot stand iit!!
- denver was realli swiit 2 come n tell mii abt iit.
- fark! i am so farkin pissed!
- ok. i am calm. i am calm
- fark!!! i am so pissed!
- *wiipes tears*
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fiind a guy who calls u beautiiful iinstead of hott.
wh0 calls u backk when u hangg up on him.
who w0uld stay awake juz 2 watchh u sleep.
waiit 4 the b0y who kisses ur foreheadd.
who wants 2 show u off to the w0rldd iin sweats.
who holdds ur hand iin fr0nt of his frenz.
who tiinks u're juz as pretty wiith0ut makeupp.
waiit 4 the one who iis c0nstantly remindiing u of h0w muchh he cares abt u and h0w lucky he iis 2 have u.
waiit 4 the 0ne who turnns 2 his frenz n says,
"..... tads her."
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juz read nadzii's blog. her entriies always leave deep impressions onn mii. they're so full of, hmmm, i dunno. sadness? hope? sinceriity? well, nadzii say she'll onlii tell when the tym is riite, so i shall not preassure her. anw, skipped church again. im sitting in front of the comp feeling realli bored. school tmr. damn. lazy 2 go. juz feel lyk stayin home n rotting. dun feel lyk seeing ppl. dun feel lyk studyin. dun feel lyk seeing ytad blardy thng. dun feel lyk doin anytiing. all i want is 2 sit down sumwhr wiith my frenz n laff til my stomach hurtts. i juz wanna smile at the computer screen lyk an idiiot when im chatting. haha. basically, im hating school now. haven done a single hmwk. and worst still, i din bring home any of my hmwk. die.


*sumtyms, ii wonder iif u wonderr abt mii ..
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went n watch robots wiith denver today. he had free tix. so, yea. it was a niice show. the movie was at 6.50pm. reached home at abt 9.40pm. syed's mum's bdae 2dae so he must have went out wiith his family. ali's online but i guess he's bz siince he hasnt said hii. nadzi, iza n xinni are not online. jeevan as well. and no amriit. i. am. friendless. my usual companions are not online. thank god mateen is talkin 2 mii or i'd go insaneeeee. nah, i could always read a book. or do my hmwk. wich btw, i dun noe wad hmwk i have. besides DNT tad is wich i am too lazy 2 do. anw, did i mention tad denver has got mii a bdae prezzie. well he n darren actually. aaw! i was so touched! haha. denver seems 2 be getting nicer n nicer. its scariing mii. haha. but its pretty cool hanging out wiith him. anw, he n darren got mii a paier of orange n green (yes, i noe the colours are weiird) fliip flops. have i saiid tad im touchhed? well, i am. realli. so yea. tad was how i spent my day. toOdles.
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miss congeniality is niice. i went n watched iit with jac, hui ling n xinni. had funn. :) so, im tis close 2 updatiing. cos im too lazy. haha. bye.
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omfg! my pri skl fren juz called mii 2 wish mii happi bdae! lyk wow! haha. its been ages since i've seen her n she still cann rmbr my bdae, phone number n all those stuff by heart. *shocked* she's sooo SWIIT! haha. juz came back. my leggs are achiing. cos of sum stoopid forfeit tad we had 2 do in malay class ytd. when i reached, got alot of wishes frm ppl. den had sum EQ talk. coach mag was pretty boring. but den, coach luke came iin. n he's realli great. he's so enthu n all. anw, he left after lyk 15 mins. den coach mag talked summore n den coach brandon came in. *faiints* he is so cute! haha. anw, siince we were all pretty bored n all, he entertained us by playin wiith us sum miind games. and it was lyk we sort of tacked teamed. cos he started out wiith tis game n i discovered the answer realli fast. haha. n the whole class was lyk so blurr. anw, he's a realli cool n nice guy. later, when iza n jac told him tad iit was my bdae, he wished mii n shoke my hand. haha. im goin gaga. later, we went 2 kopitiam 2 eat. the gang bought mii a choc bdae cake n i was realli touched. den juz b4 we left kopitiam, we met coach brandon n the rest of the coaches n he wished mii happi bdae n skaked my hand AGAIN! kekekeke!!! made our way 2 clementi stadium after tad. sports day. *siigh* iza did GREAT. im so proud of her. nadzii n xinni ran realli well too. 4 the 1st tym in my years in GESS, it din rain 4 a sport event. wow. my neighbours juz called mii. n they sang a happi bdae song 4 mii on the fone. aww. so swiit. haha. k. i'll stop here. have 2 go down n meet them. bye.

special thx:
iza, nadzii, syed, jac, xinni, jeevan, cynthia, ali, yi ling, denver, hui ling, serene, potato, pok pok, salwa, thilaga, joe n the many many more ppl who have made my day so much brighter. i lurve u guys. n gals. :)
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march is a horrible month. a very horrible month indeed. had tad CAST tinghy after skl followed by ELDDS. spent all the tym sitting down n learning how 2 pronounce our words nicely n clearly. den, the bandd started playin n jeremiah took us 2 the end of the 3rd floor, classroom blocks. sat in the middle of amrit, han rui n aldrin n got suaned as usual. after EL, went 2 tiong with denver, XX n farah. ate thr. i deleted tad crap tad i wrote. it was all juz abiit of a misunderstandiing. all thx 2 a blardy bastard name wilflirt au! oh well. haha. im kind of happi. n i dun now y. i shldnt be. *siigh*
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im in no mood 2 update. kim yong amaziingly apologised 2 mii. so touched! haha. nvr expected tad frm hiim. well, yea. im in a fucking fucked up mood now. fuckin thng. she fuck off n die in hell lar. bitch! argh! im so so pissed. i could kill a cow man. *siigh* wadever lar. today is juz not a good day. im feeling horrible. its been a long tym siince sumone said "i lurve u" 2 mii n realli meant it. *siigh* im a depressive bitch. fuck. sumone pls kill mii n end my misery. haha. ok, dun. thrs still many reasons 2 liive. besiides the fact tad mdm rosy totally humiliated mii in front of my whole class plus ali, sean n yi ling. *sObz* but i still lurve her. i swear, if i could have blushed, i would have blushed madly. tads how embarressed i was. god! i'll nvr be able 2 look at ali again. haha. ok, tads over reactiing, but yea. jeevan's also feeling totally fucked up. n its all thx 2 our lovely n wonderful mums. they go 2 church, repent, act holy but when they come backk home, all hell breaks loose. its as if they're not even christians. n my mum n dad are always forcing- yes forcing- mii 2 go 2 church. boo hoo. wad happened 2 the fruits of the spiriit? u noe, love, joy, peace. blahh blahh. so lyk i said, i have no mood. so shant bore u wiith my crap til u have no mood 2. bye.
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im suppose 2 hand in my maths fiile 2dae cos i promiised ms thng but, sum of my maths wksheets are wiith jac n i cant contact her. so .. yea.

woke up, took a bath den turned on the comp. so, i've been on the comp most of the day. at ard 3, i started 2 feel hungry, so, cooked myself lunch. im not a bad cook ok. i lazy 2 go down lar so no choice. jacob had gone 4 soccer mentioning tad he hated mii juz b4 he left. got sum perverted phonecall in the afternoon also. horrible! ek, i dun wanna tiink abt it so dun ask. called iza 2 tell her abt tad fone called n we talked abt guys. u noe, mainly THOSE guys. haha. dunno who? den nvm. :) went ard readiing ppl's blogs n praveen's (jeevan's bro) blog is super coOl.

syed miite not be coming online 4 awhile. so, *sigh*. thrs no one 2 talk 2 online now except ali n amrit. so pathetic riite? at least thrs the telefone. :) so, yea. amrit wants 2 read tis crap in abt 6 mins. ytd, i accidently typed his name as amit n he was so insulted. kept goin on abt mii insulting hiis manlyhood. oh puh-lease! as if he has one. whahaha. i noe he's gonna read tis tads y im typing tiis. keke.

my miind kips wonderiing back 2 ytd. does ur wander back 2? haha.

u noe, its amaziing wad camps n drama productions can do. 4 example, b4 drama niite, i hated charmaine's guts but after DN, i found out tad she's a totally nice n cool gal. now, with the SYF, im getting 2 noe devina, amrit, denver n alot of other ppl better. during the sec 3 camp, i got 2 noe sean better 2 n b4 the sec 3 camp, ali was juz someone i saw ard skl. but now, he's a fren. n whenever he comes online, he says hii. b4 the sec 3 camp, he was in my contact list n i in his but we hardly talked. so, u get wad im sayin riite? yea.

waitiing 4 my fone 2 riing. but i noe it wun riing yet cos SUM PPL are playin soccer at ngee an city or sumwhr thr. *sigh* bored out of my skinn. done most of my hmwk. left a few eng questions, did as much as i can 4 malay n done half of my maths questions.

ok. i shall stop here. bye!

*riing fone riing!!!* keke :)))
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went 2 GW with denver ytd cos he was bored n he has such great powers of persuasion .. so, ended up spendiing the day with him .. 2dae, met jeevan n syed in orchard n went n watch boogeyman .. lame show .. after tad, went 2 jeevan's hse .. slacked lyk hell, used his comp, watched lame n crappy stuff den watched jeevan n syed cycle n skate .. at ard 6, toOk a taxi back 2 city hall with syed den took teh MRT home .. tads all tad happened 2dae lor .. haha .. had one of the most best n relaxing tym in a few weeks .. FUCK! SHE juz called my mum!!!! tad fuckin thng juz called 2 ask 4 my mum! argh! die!!! mampus!!! aaahhh!!! how?!?!?! thank god my mum's not in .. die lar die! aiyo .. she wants my mum 2 call her back .. die lar die! nvm nvm .. *sigh* i have 2 go now .. my bro juz came back n he wants 2 use the comp .. so bye ..

p.s. i can still smell ur perfume .. :)
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so, camp was more fun den i thot it'd be .. we had fun in the camp but the training was also intensive n vigorous .. achiing feet is the result of all the standing tad we had 2 endure during the training sessions .. but it was all worth it .. jeremiah is a GREAT instructor .. on mon, i saw ali, syed, sean, mateen n kim yong .. aaww! iza, i got 2 see him n u din! haha .. after dinner, a few of us were sitting near the arena den yong liang, amrit n mohsen walked in behind mii n started makin racist comments .. n i tell u ar, aldrin, amrit, mohsen, hanrui n yong liang lurve 2 suan mii .. so i got pissed .. cos they had been suaning mii since the beginning of the day .. after 5 min, they came behind mii n apologised .. but i ignored them .. xue er told asked them y they were apologising 2 my back so, they moved in front of mii, bowed down n started apologising! it was hilarious! haha .. so i 4gave them lar .. :) slept at ard 12 .. the gals slpet in the music room while the guys slept in the 4g n 4h .. i slept next 2 jumana n she woke mii up in the middle of the nite juz 2 tell mii tad she was cold .. so, i lent her my sweater .. woke up in the morning n had PT (personal training) led by hong heng .. n i actually ran! haha .. yong liang, amrit n mohsen calls themselves the manly brothers .. riite .. *roll eyes* but it was kind of fun hanging ard with them once in a while .. they're nice lar .. had AP .. den rehersed again .. n we shared the hall with MLDDS .. SYED CAN DANCE! haha .. yes he can .. 2dae, we had rehersals b4 we left .. left skl at ard 5 .. feeling hungry now ..

anw, did anyone miss mii??? hehe .. i realli nid nadzi riite now but she's not online .. regarding tis matter, she's the onli one tad will understand n sympatise with mii .. haiz .. i come back, look through my frenz blogs n den *sigh* .. nadzi's blog realli hit mii hard in the face .. she noes exactly abt my situation .. yes, i noe im being dumb .. im bein so fuckin dumb! i hate myself! n during camp, yong liang said sumtiing 2 mii tad hit mii hard in the face .. i din noe wad 2 say .. but wad m i suppose 2 do??? it seems tad no matter wad happens, im all alone on tis one .. no one can help mii .. i can help jac, iza or whoever .. but no one can help mii .. tis sucks .. even jac's not in .. *sObz*
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wOke up at 10 2dae n left my hse at ard 12 .. went 2 jac's hse .. both her sisters were thr .. i wanted 2 play the mario game on the gameboy den i juz ask jasmine (the younger sis) wiich button is used 4 jumping n she tOok the gameboy frm mii n started teaching mii how 2 play .. so cute! she was saying, "den u jump on the mushroom hor." or "dun shoot the fiish cos mario hungry den he wan 2 eat the fiish." haha .. the innocence of young kiids .. she is juz so adorable!

left jac's hse ard 1 n we made our way 2 queensway shopping center 2 buy my contacts .. i bought a pair last thursday but i accidently tore the left contact .. *sigh* i thot tad i could juz buy one side of the contact but the lady said i had 2 buy a pair .. so, tinkin tad i din have enuff $$, me n jac went 2 ikea instead 2 get hotdogs .. n i was whining all the way thr .. i HATE specs n i tink tad i lOok gross in them .. ok, not tink, noe .. so, i was realli pissed with myself .. jac was realli nice 2 put up with all my whining .. when i reached ikea den onli did i realise tad i actually had enuff $$ .. but in the end, mii n jac decided 2 go 2 the library 1st .. so off we went .. borrowed boOks n den went back 2 qeensway .. got my contacts n left ..

reached home n was happily using the comp when my neighbours came up .. they were hungry so i made them egg n luncheon meat sandwiches .. poured 4 them a gazillion cups of coke n rose syrup while they were happily using the computer .. i noe i noe, i'd make such a GREAT hostess or a housewife rite? haha .. so my future husband sure lucky ..

having ELDDS camp tmr .. dreadiing it .. y? cos we're gonna be training 4 SYF most of the tym .. I HATE SYF!!! but i still lurve el .. will be gone tmr n i will be back on wed .. hopefully u all will miz mii tons .. haha .. have AP on tues .. hope i'll get 2 see ali, sean n syed .. cos they will be having their CCAs on one or two of the days tad im having camp ..

shit! i juz realise tad tad blady THNG mite call my parents while im at camp! fuck fuck fuck! all those iiotic teachers are goin ard calling parents juz cos we students din meet majority of our targets! MFs! nvm, most lykly it'll be my bro answering the fone not my parents cos they'll be at work! whahaha! stoopid thng! stoopid giam! stoopid rules! its all tad asshole, Giams fault! he loOks lyk a blady monkey 4 heaven's sake! he n his stoopid ideas! hope he burns in hell! kekeke ..

well, tads all .. so yea .. i shall stop here cos amrit is pesteriing mii 4 my blog add .. so i wanted 2 finish updating tis so he can read tis .. aint i swit? so amrit, be grateful! :)

bye ppl! see u on wed!
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woke up at ard 9.30 2dae .. 9.30! haha .. not bad eh? finished reading a book .. catching James by sarah mason .. its realli nice n hilarious .. i rate it 9 upon 10 .. yea .. sum idiot went n wrote crap on my blog .. the person dOes not nid 2 leave her name but its pretty obvious 2 mii .. she is definitely pathetic .. stooping down 2 such a low level by spamming my board n syed's board .. tad is definitely pathetic .. wad can i say? its expected frm her lar .. so, 2 tad [???] person .. i noe who u are .. syed doesnt lyk u .. he has made it obvious n he is definitely not leadiing u on in any way .. so dun go ard following him n cryin over the slightest tings he does 2 make u understand tad he so does not lyk u .. u called him 3 tym ytd n he said he was on the fone .. well, guess who he was talkin 2? *smirk* make a guess .. u shld juz give up on him .. i dun care abt u anymore .. u're not even considered a fren n i no longer care abt ur feelings or wadever u do .. juz leave mii alone n learn 2 move on n oso, quite pitying urself .. syed's my best fren .. wad did u expect? he tells mii more den u cud ever dream he'd tell u .. u're utterly digusting n pathetic man .. ok .. enuff of bitchin .. so ..... im bored now .. wad 2 do, wad 2 do, wad 2 do?
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guess who's back? back again? hannah's back .. tell a fren .. haha .. yay! finally im back .. yes .. my Internet">internet got cut off cos my mum din pay the bill .. anw, its paid oredi- FINALLY .. so yea .. im BACK! its pretty late now, so no one will read tis yet .. juz spent lyk 5 hours on the fone talkin n talkin n talkin .. i have no idea wad we talked abt .. we talked abt anytiing n everytiing .. kind of hungry .. din eat dinner .. juz found out tad sean's bdae is on may the 24th .. tads the same day as diyanah n fiq .. yup .. had el 2dae .. its been a realli stressful n tiring week with SYF coming soon .. cant wait 4 it 2 all be over .. feel so tired .. yea .. dun realli noe wadd 2 talk abt .. sean muz be siick .. kept showeriing mii with compliments- amaziingly .. having el camp on mon, tues n wed .. mite be able 2 see sean n ali on mon nite cos they're having scouts camp .. yea .. n finally the holidays are here .. thank God .. anw, i guess i shall stop here .. hope u ppl din miz mii 2 much .. haha .. yea .. so bye bye! :)
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