we have put iin so muchh effort. so much sweat and tears. so much laughter and joy. so much perseverence and hardwork. so muchh memoriies. and wad did we get? nope, not a COP. a bronze? nahh. silver? hmmm .. nope. gold? come on, u're almost thr. gold WITH HONOURS? yup! u got iit!

GESS ELDDS rawks.

enuff saiid :)
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mr goh sux. full stop. juz ask anyone iin 3d. we all hate him. enuff saiid.

starting 2 feel the pressure iin skl. i actually studied 4 my hist. and tad doesnt happen often. hope i at least come close 2 passing.

im still stuck iin tis mess. sumtyms, i feel lyk its not a mess. sumtyms, i actually enjoy iit. hey! isnt tis wad i always wanted? but now tad im getting iit, i realise tad it sux and i dun wan it. please, please sumone, get mii out of tis mess.

wads the tiing abt guys? they refuse 2 open up. they refuse 2 tell anyone wadds one their minds. they dun even wanna tell those who sincerely care 4 them abt wads happening. iits annoying.

oh, i've made a new freeeen. haha .

mii and iza were sitting in dnt class talkin abt surnames and how iit'd sound wiith our names. and we came 2 tis conclusion:
-iza mahtani (har har)
-jacqueline pereira
-hannah jacobs

haha. total crap larr. but hey, we were bored.

*Amor , no es amor (if this ain't love)
Then what am I feelin', (then what am I feelin')
What am I doin' wrong
Amor, no es amor (if this ain't love)
Is this an illusion (is this an illusion)
That I have in my heart

obsession
(i am so addicted 2 tis songg)
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juz reached home. exams are starting iin 13 days. having a hist test tmr and a chem test on thurs or fri. so annoying. gonna study 4 my hist after im done with tis. i cant beliff im realli gonna study. haha. ok, i mite end up not studying larr. i've done tad b4. i bing back my books intending 2 study budden i end up getting occupied wiith sumting else.

went 2 qeensway 2 cos iza wanted 2 get sumting. den went back 2 sch. sum sec 1s forced iza 2 buy one of those balloon stuff. so iza bought it but she din wan iit so i took it. after walking with her 2 the bus stop, i was walking home and i knew tad iif i continued 2 play with tad balloon tingy, it'd burst. and yes, it did in the end. i was happily twisting iit and den all of a sudden iit burst in my hand causing my shirt, skirt and shoes 2 get wet. but it wasnt tad bad larr.anyway, almost home wadd.

im so sleepy. i juz wanna sleep. bu i nid 2 study study study AND watch CSI later. yup. and 2dae iis jacob's day. the onlii reason y im usin the comp rite now is cos he's not yet back. most lykly playing soccer.

well, im gonna be guai now. bye. :)
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i.am.so.freakin.tiired.

wanna nOe how tiired? well, so tired tadd i have propped my feet next 2 the comp and now im 2 lazy 2 type anytiing. so i am using the online keyboard. haha. ok. now i've stopped using iit. iits 2 troublesome and annoying.

iin the mrning, met shella, farah and tim to go 4 sum 10 min script writing course. we ended up walking iin the opposite diirection. tad is the reason why i dun take geog. haha. ok. wadever. tad was lame. er, yea.

den, went 2 armstrong's hse. met shella and jumana. it was freddy's bdae. and they got him a cake and a t-shirt den managed 2 conviince him 2 wear the t-shirt and he STRIPPED RITE IN FRONT OF US. *swoons* he is SO hot. man oh man. haha. im becoming lyk nOreen and jumana. keke. left wiith amrit and XX. and amrit soooo swit paid 4 the cab faiir. aww.

a few ppl have been telling mii tad the dreadful performance on IFD was great. yea rite. *rolls eyes* but since they said tad, maybe, MAYBE, i would consider not skipping school on the day tad we perform 4 the upper sec. wait a minute. dream on. i'd rather kiss a frog.

im becoming so weak. im becoming so stoopid. im becoming so dumb.

*yeah yeah do you really have everything you want
you could never give something you ain't got
you can't run away from yourself

are u happy now?
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broken promises. *siigh* its not the fiirst.

had el performance 2day. so embarressing. dun dare do iit again.

came 2 school wiith a bad moOd. left school feeling much much better. but now, im back 2 feeling moody. im blaming itt on pms. well, iits not a lie. iits true. casey was the 1st to notiice. my new bf. haha. nahh. so, im kind of sensitive nOw. yea. juz a warning 2 ward off irritating souls.

*We are all the same
Human in all our ways and all our pain
So let it be
There's a love that could fall down like rain
Let us see
Let forgiveness wash away the pain

we beliieve.
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wow! wad a day. slept over iin skl ytd niite. met denver 1st den walked 2 skl. slept iin the music rm. and i slept realli well iin fact. did 2 runs b4 sleeping. and jeremiah saiid tad the 2nd one was the best out ofal we've done. anw, woke up at 5 iin the mrning 2dae. bathed and did my haiir and makeup. blah blah. did a run b4 goin 2 chinese high. left skl at 8. reached thr at ard 8.30. we performed at ard 9.30 and we were GREAT! gess eldds so rawks! we all did so well. we did our best and iit was magic. yong liang was great and so was everyone else. anw, congrats 2 the choir, tamil dance, band and malay dance. u guys did great. the dance results 4 eldds will be coming out tmr. hope they did well.

ran the 2.4 after skl at ard 3.30. and i finished iit within 15.37 mins. hehe. im so proud of myself. cos i suck at running. :) went 2 tiong and slacked wiith nadzi, sherry, xinni, priscilla and yun hao. iit was realli nice. so windy. anw, im 2 tired 2 write much.

bye
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uuuhh! new skiin. hehe. bored lar. tired and bored. iits so girl lor tis skiin. nvm. i shall change iit again iif im bored. :) SYF is in 2 days tym. stayin over iin skl tmr. CSI iis starting in abt half an hour. i shld be studyin 4 bio test. hmmmm. syed and fiq are studyin. i dunno abt the rest. i dunno wad 2 wriite abt.

oh, btw. lemme tell u sumtiing. puay leng spilled a driink on her shoe. so she washed iit and driied iit ON the sun. yes, ON the sun. direct quote frm her. keke. puay leng is sumone who manages 2 get mii rolling on the floor with laughter. and mii, nadzii and PL managed 2 put a smiile on the sad xinni's face. cheer up ok gal?

bye ppl.
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el, el, el. my whole world has been revolviing ard eldds these couple of dayys. its horrible. im so draiined by the end of the week. finally managed 2 catch up on my sleep ytd and i also managed 2 finiish readiing a boOk. well, im haviing el 4 the rest of the week until the final day, wiich is thurs. on weds, will be sleeping in skl cos we hve 2 be up realli early iin the mrning. we'll be the 1st or 2nd skl performing. den we'll stay thr and watch other skls perform. so i wun be ard the whole day. yea. cant waiit 4 all tis 2 be over. *siigh*

i have 2 talk 2 him. no, i dunn wanna talk 2 him. y cant i avoiid him til tiings get better? y did i change my miind? y did i back out all of a sudden? y do i have 2 be so stubborn? y do i have 2 be so farkiin weiird?? damn.

went and watchh iza run 2dae. she did pretty well. dear fiq. oh tad poor guy. its sarks bein accused. he din do iit. stoopid *whatshername*. i hate her 2 the core. how can she farkin accuse fiq of doiin such a tiing? she and her stoOpid white heels. yea, we noe u're short so u're tryin 2 look taller with ur heels. well, hello! iits NOT wrkin! i mean, i am not tad tall, but im definitely taller den her even when she's weariing her fugly heels. y am i getting so worked up? cos one of my clostest frenz fone has gotten confiscated and he got accused of doin sumtiing tad he din do. and he iis feeling so farked up and sad and im doin my best 2 cheer him up. and she still can cry. biatch. and guess wad? she's a farkin ELDDS member. sucky or wad?

juz when i thot i was startiing 2 feel happy and tiings were goin realli well, these kind of tiings had 2 enter the picture. i feel so guilty when i tiink abt tad *issue*. iza and nadz have been realli supportiive. i guess the moral of all tis is, nthin ever goes well 4 more den 2 days in hannah's liife. sucky. *siigh*

i need a BIG WARM hug frm sumone riite now. no, i dun need iit frm sumone. i nid iit frm u. i wiish i could relive wad happened tad day. wad day was iit? err, was iit a fri or sat? nvm. u rmbr tad day dun u? do u ever go back 2 tad day and wonder ..... ? i juz want a hug. frm u. as a fren.

questiion: cann u tell mii exactly wads goin on iin ur head?
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iits been ages since i last updated eh? anw, iits been a real tiring week tis whole week. el, el and more el rehersal. its almost everyday and im realli tired. im feeling weak n lethargic. *siigh*

so maybe tiings arent gonna brighten up 2 mii yet. and i realli thot iit was goin 2. but im sort of glad it din. ok, wad am i talking abt? haha. stress. i dunno wad 2 say, wad 2 do or how 2 react. im iin a fuckin mess.

thng changed my place again cos i was talkin 2 much with casey. so, i've switched places wiith janice. its doesnt realli matter whr she puts mii lar cos i'll still talk. :) im not bein defiiant or anytiing but, u noe mii. anw, she was teaching half way and den she stopped and said, "u noe thrs a couple iin tis class. they keep talkin and talkin and i cannot stand iit." den the whole class was lyk who? who? den she said, "they dun even noe tad im talkin abt them." the whole class was laffing by den lar. all getting excited. i mean, who wudnt lurve these stuff. haha. den she said it. "its casey and hannah lar. they keep talkin and talkin lyk a couple." den mii and casey kept sayin "wad sial!" haha. and we were laffing our asses off, the whole class. wah, casey turned red. he was soooo embarressed. haha. but seriously, we're juz good frenz.

and den juz niice, 5 mins later, ali walked past. wad sial. the moment he was visible, the whole class exploded. its lyk he was sum popstar or sumting. they were all screaming his name. i was so embarressed.

anw, i was forced 2 update by amrit. but he went offline 2 early 2 see tis. haha. end of story.

bye.
fuck! he's coming up! paniick!!!
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maybe, MAYBE, sumtiing good is finally gOin 2 happen 2 mii. yes, FINALLY. i guess im kiind of happy. haha. ok, i definiitely am. :)

had el until 6. trainiings are startiing 2 end realli late. nOreen was hilariious. she was lykk beiin so lame n cute, iit totally crackedd mii up. haha. left sch withh denver. was planning 2 go home and dO my hmwk cos thrs alott, but saw my neighbOur, thilaga and her 2 frenz, aliff andd abel. sO satt thr n did sum of myy maths hmwk. went hOme and took a bathh den went 2 the park agaiin. satt thr talked 2 abel. iit was realli fun lar. he toldd mii stuff abt jacob, abt his sec 4 liife (he's an ex gessian) n stuff. anw, leftt at 9.30. so here ii am. waitiing 4 desperate hOusewiives 2 start.

do u notice hOw we're slowly driifting apart? we're nOt as clOse as we usedd 2 be. even back when we were bestt frenz. b4 all tis happened. iits lyk, we piss eachh other off at the slightest tiings. do u tinkk we'll ever be as clOse as we were a year ago? ii hope we cann.

byee.
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my quiiz

yea, i made tad quiiz so take iif u're free take iit n see how well u noe mii. actually i did one b4 tis. but i realiised tad iits too ez. so i created a new one. haha. juz shows how i have nthin 2 do. so yea. and iif u take the quiz, plz leave ur REAL name behiind. yea.

and i juz wanted 2 say tad iits stoopid 4 one 2 giive up on lurve juz cos they got hurt b4. eventually, u will fall in lurve whether u want 2 or not. u juz cant stop urself. so maybe, u shld stop resistiing iit. its stoopid. doesnt the happi tyms tad u had wiith the person come back n make u smile every now n den? so juz let loose a little.
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i always feel annoyed by the end of the day. have i saiid tad b4? and juz waking up has made mii even more moody den b4. tmr. tmr i can finally sit in the park wiith my neighbours and their frenz and get complimented 4 no particular reason. my neighbours have been realli swiit lar. fuckin faizal n fuckin go 2 hell cos iif he fuckin pisses mii of again, he is so fuckin screwed! thr. he is an absolute bastard. i juz wanna thank iza, nadzii n devina. they've been reali great frenz. thr so many tiings goin on and iit feels as if im stuck in the middle of a turnado. *siigh* i've been feeling realli down lately. but wiith the company of my frenz iin skl, i always feel better. 2dae, went 2 the library wiith pok pok, nadzi, iza, jac n jovy. mii n pok pok were grabbing each others shoes n rolling all over the floor. haha. finally sum fat guy came over n lectured mii n pok pok. den tad stoopid pok pok, he took his red pen n said "fiire!" n threw iit at mii. and it poked a teeny weeny hole in my knee. haha. had fun lar. OMFG! utt iis sooo CUTE! *squeals* keke!!! aaahh! he is so freakin cute. okok. haha.
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